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I AM THE NEW ONE ZERO. I AM A BORN-AGAIN CHRISTIAN BUT BEFORE I CONVERTED MY LIFE I WAS DEEP INTO THE DARKNESS. I STARTED GETTIN INTO TROUBLE AROUND THE AGE OF THIRTEEN. I WAS IN A GANG AND WAS VERY ACTIVE WITH WHAT GANGSTAZ DO. I WAS PUT IN JUVENILE 14 TIMES AND THEN SENT 2 WILDERNESS CAMP 4 1 YEAR. I WAS ALSO INTO SATANIC WORSHIP, ACTUALLY I WAS VERY DEEP INTO SATANIC WORSHIP. ONCE I WAS RELEASED FROM WILDERNESS CAMP I TRIED HARD TO LIVE A CHRISTIAN LIFE BUT IN MY MIND I REALLY HAD NO BELIEF IN GOD JESUS OR SATAN,SO I BECAME WHAT U WOULD CALL ATHEIST. I WAS DEALIN DRUGS AND USIN DRUGS ALL THROUGHOUT MY TEEN YEARS BUT WHEN I BECAME AN ADULT I GOT REALLY DEEP INTO THAT LIFE AND LEFT THE GANGBANGIN ALONE. I CAUGHT MULTIPLE FELONY COUNTS FOR RESALE OF DRUGS AND WAS CONVICTED ON ALOT OF THEM, AND I WAS CONVICTED OF MULTIPLE MISDEMEANORS FOR THE SAME THING. AT AGE 24 I WAS ADDICTED TO OPIATES AND COULDNT QUIT AND ONE OF THE WORST THINGS IN MY LIFE HAPPENED. I WAS SELLIN OUT OF THE HOUSE WHERE ME,MY FIANCE,AND MY DAUGHTER LIVED. AN INFORMANT WAS COMING INTO MY HOUSE AND MAKING PURCHASES. THEN ONE NIGHT I WAS READING MY DAUGHTER A BOOK AND THE DOOR GOT KICKED IN AND I WAS SWARMED WITH COPS. I WOULDNT TELL THIS STORY EXCEPT 4 THE FACT THAT IT HAUNTS ME BECAUSE I SAW THE FEAR IN MY DAUGHTERS FACE AS THEY AIMED GUNS AT US AND THREW HER DADDY ON THE GROUND. THINGS LIKE THAT HAPPENED A LOT AND I NEVER GOT THE POINT. I ALSO WAS OBSESSED WITH SUICIDE AND DEATH. THROUGHOUT MY LIFE I HAVE MADE 7 SUICIDE ATTEMPTS AND I SELF-MUTILATED WHILE I WAS DEPRESSED. I WAS KEPT ALIVE THROUGH THESE ATTEMPTS BY MIRACLES(GOD KEPT ME ALIVE) AND I WILL GIVE U AN EXAMPLE-AT THE AGE OF 20 I LIVED IN AN APARTMENT WITH MY SISTER AND I OWNED A LOT OF GUNS. I KEPT THEM ALL LOCKED AND LOADED AT ALL TIMES ESPECIALLY THE 12 GUAGE I KEPT ON THE TOP SHELF OF MY CLOSET. ONE DAY I GOT IT DOWN READY TO COMMIT SUICIDE AND PLACED IT IN MY MOUTH. I PULLED THE TRIGGER WITH NO HESITATION AND I HEARD A CLICK. I COCKED IT BACK AND PULLED THE TRIGGER AGAIN,NOTHING HAPPENED.SO I DID IT AGAIN,SAME THING, CLICK. I REALIZED SOMETHING WASNT RIGHT SO I TOOK THE GUN OUT OF MY MOUTH AND WHEN I DID I LOOKED BESIDE ME AND ALL 8 OF THE SHELLS WERE SITTING BESIDE ME IN A NEAT PILE. THE SHELLS WERE NOT THERE B4 I PUT THE GUN IN PLACE BUT WERE THERE WHEN I MOVED THE WEAPON AWAY. I NOW REALIZE THAT GOD INTERVENED AND KEPT ME ALIVE CUZ IT WASNT MY TIME. ALL 7 OF MY ATTEMPTS HAVE SIMILAR STORIES BUT THIS IS THE WILDEST ONE BUT IT IS ALL TRUE. I STARTED WRITING POETRY AT AGE 10 AND I HAVE STILL NEVER STOPPED. I STARTED TURNING THE POEMS INTO LYRICS AT AGE 13-14 AND CONTINUED DOING THAT CUZ I REALIZED THAT IS THE AREA IN WHICH I HAD THE MOST TALENT. I HAVE RECORDED HUNDREDS OF SONGS AND OF COURSE I WAS WRITING ABOUT WHAT I WAS LIVING SO THE SONGS WERE VERY NEGATIVE,FULL OF DEATH,DRUGS ,SUICIDE,AND HATRED /BLASPHEMY TOWARDS GOD. MY MOTHER ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD CHANGE MY LIFE AND MUSIC AND I ALWAYS LAUGHED IT OFF BUT SHE NEVER GAVE UP. I ALSO HAD 5 SURGERIES ON MY STOMACH IN A 1 YEAR SPAN 2 IN WHICH I ALMOST DIED. I DID SURVIVE ALL OF THAT BY GODS GRACE AND HE KEPT ME ALIVE WHILE I TALKED ABOUT HOW FAKE AND PHONEY HE WAS(BOY WAS I WRONG). I HAVE ALOT OF STORIES OF SITUATIONS WHERE I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD BUT MIRACLES KEPT ME ALIVE SO I AM HERE FOR A REAL REASON AND THAT IS TO GLORIFY THE LORD THROUGH MY MUSIC, 2 GET TO KIDS B4 THEY FOLLOW THE PATH I DID,AND TO HELP PEOPLE GET AWAY FROM THE BONDAGE OF EVIL BECAUSE IF I WAS SAVED AND FORGIVEN THEN IT IS TRUE THAT NO LIFE IS IRRETRIEVABLE. SO MY WHOLE REASON 4 DOIN WHAT I AM DOIN IS NOT FOR FAME OR MONEY,IT IS TO RETRIEVE SOULS FROM THE ENEMY SO THOSE SOULS CAN INHERIT THE GLORIOUS KINGDOM OF GOD--REMEMBER: SINNERS MAKE THE BEST SAINTS--

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